i've thought about funeral services and decided that i don't want a funeral.
i've had to plan a funeral from scratch and collaborate on two other funerals and it seems like such a lot to go through, on top of mourning for the loss and the unpleasant tasks of going through material remnants (private and otherwise) of people's lives, that i would like to spare my husband or my daughter as much of it as possible.
i plan to give things away as i get older, in the hopes that they won't have to wade through too many possessions or attend a complicated reading of a will. i don't want a funeral service; if someone has loved me, i'd rather have it demonstrated during my lifetime. i also feel that if i want to be alive in someone's memories that it would be hard for anyone to have memories that have to co-exist with memories of me lying dead before them in a casket - that's what i have memories of...someone being part of my life: laughing, sitting around the dinner table, holidays and then other memories of those people lying still, like empty shells. it's a sad contrast to remember.